I really dislike being in this spot light position, people reaching out and trying to help which is nice but is can't help to feel its wrong in some way and thanks guys but let me explain.
I'm an asperger which in my case means that I over react to if you compare me to a neotypical aka non diagnosed, person, this might very very messy and hard to understand the point of, I will correct the mistakes later on but thats how my mind works when my brain is on overdrive mode.
I have for 1,5 been at a foster family, they aren't no strangers to me, I have in fact been knowing them since I was like 7 years if not more, I live there of my free will because my mother and I agrred that it would be the best for me because it would give me more possibilities (weird but true), so I was sent away from home so that way I could start on a special school and at the time I didn't a have school to go to because I was told that I should not go to a normal school anymore due to the fact it was hard for me to deal with and the municipality didn't give me a fitting school offer at the time, if I moved away it would give me training at a housing which has been known to be one for the best places in the country if you have something in the acoustic spectrum, the housing will teach you to be more Independent and ready to live an adult life and the place also included a special education that is the mean reason why my mother and I though it would be nice to we said yes of cause.
I was promised that but thats not the case anymore, I fear that if I miss that, I shall start all over again and that freaks me out massively because I failed to fit in a normal school, so a normal education will be that much harder right. I have learning diffculties both practical and school wise so you kinda where this is heading not saying that i'm not good at anything but theres reason why I was giving the offer in the first place.
One for the major problems is that I'm living in a different municipality than the one thats paying for my special school, the foster family and what should have been my future education and housing, that funny thing is that every one around drag into votes yes for last part, school ,foster family, mother, my social worker from the other municipality even says its the right thing but the person is really in this case nothing but a messenger delivering undated news because she has way to many people for care for.
The danish law clearly says that the childs well being should be a priority above economy but thats not the example here, the ministry of education into this because the system is having troubles agreeing with the people that knows what I'm able to do, they are discussioning whats is the right thing to do with me at the moment and we don't know when we will get answer, But I can understand its somewhat to late I guess, they would have told me if they knew by now perhaps a good surprise will come but if my knowledge serves me right it wouldn't.
If so thats what gonna happen, It leaves with me one option get back to my mother and lower my standard and remove my support and I could live with that, I will be back home and have good friends around and stuff.. so whats the damn problem you might ask?
I can deal with it if I know the outcome because then I can prepare myself for the trouble but if I'm not told what route I'm heading, chaos kicks in, I'm getting pressured by many sides here and time is running fast now against me but if I should could focus clearly with out making disturbance, I should just wait and see but I weren't Into the idea of getting back home at the again at the start but because that was predictable it has become safety and a way to stabelising my thoughts and It locks the other what if door.
this is there my question comes in.
what is the key to maintane your mind from that kind of of repulsiveness
This post was edited by A.K Fan1234 (2011-05-20 08:41, 6 years ago)